I sat here for hours on end trying/editing something that can be easily accomplished within minutes. That's how I am. I am not a FOCUSED person. :0(

Now I'm listening to the Green version of "UP!"

I would've liked to write about Leslie Avenue but what would that represent in the long run? That I couldn't part from a familar place or that I could change and adapt if needed. It is a place I won't even forget...

So is it just holidays now that I catch up with Jessica and Young and the rest of the gang? I wished I could set aside more time just to call them up and ask "How's it going?" Even talking to a couple people online lately (Steven, Jue, Jackie, etc etc) isn't the same.

Well, things change.

After reading Sigler's novel, I got a craving for eggplant parm so I actually went out to get some today! It was pretty good. Haha.

I really don't like my college essay, but I'm not sure I can come up with anything better... it's hard to stand out in a page.. and finding it so crucial to depict a single moment which magnifies that. I am of many things that I cannot put down into words.

It really gets on me how unbelievably BORING some people are. I like people who are different. Virbrant. Unique. And that make things interesting. I can only hope I am what I described.

I recall a couple weeks ago when Mme asked me what kind of person I would talk to... a sad person or a happy person. I said sad and she asked me why (probably thinking I messed up on the vocab, which I did not). I told her sad people are more interesting and have a more interesting story. I truly stand by and believe that (strange, eh?). Some people that know me say sometimes I can be depressed, down n' dirty. I don't come across as that, but it gets lonely in this mind of mine.

I know I'm just ranting and pretending I'm a non-conformist or whatever. Maybe it's 2 am. Maybe i'm just crazy.. but like Mme said, some of the most famous artists are the ones with the most problems. They stand out.

I'm listening to the clips of "8 Women" at their official sites. The soundtrack is coming out on Dec. 18th but that's VERY strange since the movie premiered in the first week of September in America. Hmm.. Anyways, it's something I plan to get for XMas. I just love the songs especially "Pile ou face" sung by the actress who played "Manon" in the movie we watched in French class. "Mon amour mon ami" is very catchy!

As one of my favorite country singers Cyndi Thomson (we will miss your recording career but respect your decision!) sings:

And here's the honest truth...

I'm not over the moon with UC apps. I just don't get why I'm even applying there and no one's really pressuring me. I don't think I'll make it in and either way, if I do... I probably won't end up going there. It's not one of my high choices because it just doesn't focus primarily into what I want to study. I've searched and looked beyond the competitiveness and still I can't find my major. However, I do need back-ups and one of the reasons for certain back-ups is location. As much as I want to journey on my own for a couple years, I want to stay near or close to Los Angeles (or New York) where the Entertainment business thrives and breathes. It would make no sense to me (besides the experience of living somewhere new) to go to a place where entertainment doesn't live because it'll only limit job opportunties. That's how I see it.

I haven't finished my UC app but the site said since it falls on a Saturday (the deadline), I can still submit by Dec. 2nd. Well, lucky me, I think. Unless I'm mistaken.

Anyways, everyone's in a whirlwind of worriness. And so am I but like Angela Via says, if I know what my calling is... I will get there with hard work and determination.
Boy, am I determined. :0)

I hate this whole college thing right now.

I've just finished "Wise Girl" by Jamie-Lynn Sigler (you know, "Meadow" on The Sopranos?). It was a fairly easy read (2 days). It was a good book. I'm not gonna criticize it much or anything (she's just 21 years old!). However when the book isn't the best thing I've read nor is it really well written, it is HONEST. Sigler sounds honest and passionate about what she feels about eating disorders and sharing the story with her fans. It's preachy at times but at the same time, it's not much different than what people write in diaries and journals. She also provides lots of details about her show, cast members, and her singing career.

The book is short and easy-to-read for all ages. I would recommend it but it's more of a book that I would borrow rather than buy (I got my copy at Borders for $13.00). I requested to the library on Main Street to carry this title. Hopefully, they listened.

I went to see "8 Women" last night. I can honestly say that it was very enjoyable. C'mon.. a French murder mystery/comedy with musical numbers?!? It was really funny and the actresses were over-the-top in a good way. I thought the story had too many plot lines that could've been eliminated but 8 of the largest French actresses resulted in almost equal screen time.

I liked the songs, especially the one sung by Chantel and Augustine. Suzon's song was catchy too. And the first track, "Daddy Ain't With It" was hilarious! A great start for the movie.

And yes, I finally conjured up the will to buy "XY" - the magazine because someone sorta coerced me to. It's a good magazine in certain areas which are generally universal advice to anyone. The eye candy is OK, but unrealistic and not even that good looking! There are silly and whiny bits which down down it's "intellectual" essence. The 'zine "Bitch!" was much more interesting to read.

Wow, I've been looking over some old tabs/chords I printed out ages ago... I use to think they were "wrong" because it was sooo difficult to play it together in accordance. It use to sound nothing like the song...

Anyways, I took out SixpenceNTR's "Kiss Me," Hoku's "How Do I Feel" (it's so easy now!), Michelle B's "You Get Me," The Corrs' "Breathless," Emma Bunton's "Take My Breath Away," and Mel C's "If That Were Me" under a stack of old papers. I can play all of them (except maybe The Corrs since it sounds REALLY weird cos the tab was with a capo and Emma's song is more acoustic) and I am so proud. :0)

Yep, that's my neighbors hearing me singing along to The Burrito Song! Also, I've never realized how much I liked the "You Get Me" lyrics especially the part "Who wants to be ordinary/In a crazy mixed-up world."

I think didn't realize that I've actually done it... I can play songs I like. That was my goal from the start... and I'm kinda proud that all those lessons helped me learn it. Hmm... you don't really learn when you're learning. :0) It's ironic that I wore my Josie and The Pussycats movie tee today (I haven't wore it in a long time) because after watching that movie, I came out of the theater slobbering for a guitar of my own! Thanks Josie! :0) I don't care what anyone says, I loved that movie cos it was witty, clever, and had a lot of inside jokes... plus the songs and soundtrack rocks (and I actually BOUGHT it, not burnt it).

I also got my cool (yet ridiculously priced) Alias sweatshirt in the mail today. It's so cool.. I just hope no one (including myself) spills anything on it... GRRR @ ABC's outrageous price.

"Who's a rock star?" - JosieATPC

Today was pretty bad because I made it bad. Silence is golden but nobody likes it when you're silent. Nobody likes you when you're loud. And being inbetween just makes you boring.

I'm listening to Jessica Andrews' new lead-off single off her next album (thanks to R&Ronline). The new song is called "There's More To Me Than You." I don't really like it... it sounds very generic and forced.

ECK! My story is as sappy as Soluna's "For All Time!" I don't know if it even has anything with being courageous... yet I used the word. Go figure. I ended the story on a note that had nothing to do with courage. Maybe I might get lucky and buy their votes with a story of love turned morality.

Ok, before I start on my homework or whatever else I have.. I want to post something before I forget.

I'm the type of person who ALWAYS say if the moment ever falls before me, I'll seize it... but I don't. I don't "seize the moment" as we all learned in Burkhart's "Dead Poet's Society" last year. Some people say fate befalls us, but does that mean we should let it do all the work? This reminds me of "Amelie" and "Happenstance."

If everyone was suppose to fall into place, does that mean I should've seized the moment and gone after the chance? I could've and I should've... I didn't. I don't know why. I know I'll be kicking myself for not taking a chance... but I know I'll be kicking myself if I did and it turned into a mess.

That's how I'm built. I don't care if that makes it's a "loser" thing to do to not take the chance.
"Sometimes you gotta sarcifice the things you like but I was born to try." - Delta Goodrem

I wished I could say the same.

I would like to share an inspirational message from singer Angela Via. Her career has been on the highs and lows of Atlantic Records with her debut album being held and pushed back for years until it was shelved for good (this year). She is someone with enormous talent and resilience.

Read on.
Topic: Hi from Angela 5-20-02
Hey everyone!!!!!
I'm pleased to say that I'm now making a fresh new start with my life and my music. About five months ago, I was suddenly released from Lava/Atlantic Records.....The explanation I was given was that things just weren't taking off and all artists in my position had to be let go due to economical reasons. It was indeed a rough time for me and there were a lot of questions 'why' that tormented my mind, but I soon realized that it was for the better. I sincerely believe that now, I'm on my way to a brighter path, which will soon lead me to working with a more positive team of people..... people who are going to listen to who I truly am as an artist. During the last few months, I have been dedicated to developing MY own style to prepare me for my 'second round' at achieving this dream of mine.
I wanna thank you guys for hanging in there and continuing to support me. I am going to do everything in my power to keep you all in tune with what's going on. It does look like good things are on the way. If perhaps any of you are in an uncertain state about your direction in life or having doubts with your dreams, my advice to you is this: no matter how down it makes you feel, don't give up. If you know what your calling is and it seems unreachable, just hold onto faith, learn all you can, work hard, and you WILL get there. I know I won't give up!!!
God bless,
Luv Angela =)

Everyone has something that they want to persue. I've always wanted to be a singer, pop star, American Idol, you name it.
I'm kind of like Renee Zellweger's character in "Empire Records" where she's such a terrible singer but she loves to sing. :0) It's still really entertaining to watch her scream "Sugar High" at the end of the flick.