Okay, I just woke up about half hour or an hour ago. I'm not sure. Maybe longer. Still, it felt like a hangover from staying out late. SFSU sent me my housing info if I wanted to buy their bedsheets. Maybe... anyways, my clothes are finished washing. Here's to no sand!
Friday, June 13, 2003
Oh yeah, I thought graduation was very cool. Thank q to Susanna and Olivia for showing up. I found out I have another unzoomed picture with Clay. Very strange that it happened twice. I am so sleepy, I just want to put things down before I forget tomorrow! Ciao. I will wake up late tomorrow!
Since I stayed up this late, I might as well have time to blog it, right? Yes... I rather blog this fabulous night of memories before I fall asleep. It's very strange to see that the sun is rising outside and the sky is purple.
Graduation was fun. I don't know what to make of the ceremony. It was nice. Instead of going to CPK, my family and I decided on Marie Callenders instead of nasty and slow Baker Sqaure. I was "nervously excited" that I couldn't finished much of my fettuccine alfredo. I had to rush because there was this not-so-greatly planned activity Kit and the group of seniors wanted to do at 10. It was suppose to be "clubbin'" but so many people kept adding onto the list. I can't blame them.. there's a Grad rush going through you.
So, it got complicated and I almost screamed my head off with the lack of direction and organization. If it was me driving, I would've been pissed. It was Lien and she's a Miss Independent! Thank goodness for her intuition (follow your hearrrrt, your intuition!). Anyways, despite Helen and her gang not coming along in the end, we had three cars: Kit's, Lien's, and Beatrice's.
Anyways, Kit took our two cars along the ride to Hollywood Blvd. for some so-called "club searchin'." It was beyond ridiculous that we were going in circles. I spent so much time talking to them on the cell phone about "When are we exactly stopping?" cos it seemed like a chase (I was in Lien's car and we got lost). Finally, we find the clubs and somehow we end up not going in. Some people supposedly did not "dress the part" and could not make it in. No one actually tried to get in though. This was a case of miscommunication. Lien really dressed up nicely!!! All glamourous and such!
Oh.. what I wore? Besides that rash from the nasty deodorant (I think I'm allergic to it) cos I didn't want to sweat, I put on a prep look of my grad clothes and my blue sweater. I also wore my cool, "unique" shoes I designed myself. I thought I looked pretty spiffy so I sprayed one shot of Cool Water on my neck that's been sitting in my bathroom for ages since my brother bought it and never used it. It smelled good.
Anyways, back to the stopping of the cars. Thank goodness Carolyn or one of the girls suggested Santa Monica beach.. so why not? What did we have to lose..? We were seniors and we wanted to do something. If I was a driver, I would've been scared cos everyone broke so many rules cuz the three cars were following each other in a straight line, trying not to lose sight of each other. Lien was the leader and got the directions from her ex for freeways and such... By the time we got to Santa Monica (I brought Vitamin C to blast "Graduation (Friends Forever)" in Lien's car), it was about 1:20 a.m. I never went to the beach so early. There was cops there to patrol, but I didn't actually see them, just their cars. There were other kids there as well.
I thought the waves and the dark painted night was beautiful. It reminded me of the line in Lee Ann Womack's "I Hope You Dance" that goes "I hope you still feel small when you stand beside the ocean." Anyways, enough of that. None of us were dressed for the part of the beach... especially me. To make a long story short, all my clothes have to be washed clean! I scrubbed my feet so many times but the darkness has not come out yet. Yep, I was barefooted. Only five (Carolyn, Lien, Ali, Kit, and me) of the ten (Beatrice, Tracy, Danh, Trinh, Albert) of us had the guts to get wet and run around like manics on Ritalin! I was one of them. Anyways, fun fun fun. I was happy Ali came along!
Thinking of it, I don't think it would be the same if we did it another night. The rush of graduation and the beach.. we felt free and wanted to have fun. This was our "grad night." It was really fun, but I know all of us who got wet are gonna get sick today! Lien got me soaked, and I was kind of frustrated at one point that my nice clothes and shoes were all sandy. In the end, it was a great time.
The beach is so nice at night. So peacefully serene. So isolated. The pier (although closed) gives the water a warm glow with its reflection. I thought I saw a couple people having some sex on the beach! Haha, wouldn't that be something? I think that's why cops patrol at night.
Afterwards, I suggested Carrow's over Norm's and Denny's. A good choice. Carrow's is still very good 24 hours with the same menu. Beatrice slept in the car. She was very tired. I hope she had some fun tonight. We ate until 4:15 a.m. or something. Carrow's definitely have nicer waiters. I'm glad we gave a DECENT/normal amount of tips. I felt bad for the guy. But we're pretty much teens with little money. The only thing I regret is not bringing my camera. This was a day of beautiful disasters. With a graduation, we are finally let go... and it's time to fly. What a rush.
There's a lot more I want to write but I am so sleepy. I can hear the birds chirping.
Graduation was fun. I don't know what to make of the ceremony. It was nice. Instead of going to CPK, my family and I decided on Marie Callenders instead of nasty and slow Baker Sqaure. I was "nervously excited" that I couldn't finished much of my fettuccine alfredo. I had to rush because there was this not-so-greatly planned activity Kit and the group of seniors wanted to do at 10. It was suppose to be "clubbin'" but so many people kept adding onto the list. I can't blame them.. there's a Grad rush going through you.
So, it got complicated and I almost screamed my head off with the lack of direction and organization. If it was me driving, I would've been pissed. It was Lien and she's a Miss Independent! Thank goodness for her intuition (follow your hearrrrt, your intuition!). Anyways, despite Helen and her gang not coming along in the end, we had three cars: Kit's, Lien's, and Beatrice's.
Anyways, Kit took our two cars along the ride to Hollywood Blvd. for some so-called "club searchin'." It was beyond ridiculous that we were going in circles. I spent so much time talking to them on the cell phone about "When are we exactly stopping?" cos it seemed like a chase (I was in Lien's car and we got lost). Finally, we find the clubs and somehow we end up not going in. Some people supposedly did not "dress the part" and could not make it in. No one actually tried to get in though. This was a case of miscommunication. Lien really dressed up nicely!!! All glamourous and such!
Oh.. what I wore? Besides that rash from the nasty deodorant (I think I'm allergic to it) cos I didn't want to sweat, I put on a prep look of my grad clothes and my blue sweater. I also wore my cool, "unique" shoes I designed myself. I thought I looked pretty spiffy so I sprayed one shot of Cool Water on my neck that's been sitting in my bathroom for ages since my brother bought it and never used it. It smelled good.
Anyways, back to the stopping of the cars. Thank goodness Carolyn or one of the girls suggested Santa Monica beach.. so why not? What did we have to lose..? We were seniors and we wanted to do something. If I was a driver, I would've been scared cos everyone broke so many rules cuz the three cars were following each other in a straight line, trying not to lose sight of each other. Lien was the leader and got the directions from her ex for freeways and such... By the time we got to Santa Monica (I brought Vitamin C to blast "Graduation (Friends Forever)" in Lien's car), it was about 1:20 a.m. I never went to the beach so early. There was cops there to patrol, but I didn't actually see them, just their cars. There were other kids there as well.
I thought the waves and the dark painted night was beautiful. It reminded me of the line in Lee Ann Womack's "I Hope You Dance" that goes "I hope you still feel small when you stand beside the ocean." Anyways, enough of that. None of us were dressed for the part of the beach... especially me. To make a long story short, all my clothes have to be washed clean! I scrubbed my feet so many times but the darkness has not come out yet. Yep, I was barefooted. Only five (Carolyn, Lien, Ali, Kit, and me) of the ten (Beatrice, Tracy, Danh, Trinh, Albert) of us had the guts to get wet and run around like manics on Ritalin! I was one of them. Anyways, fun fun fun. I was happy Ali came along!
Thinking of it, I don't think it would be the same if we did it another night. The rush of graduation and the beach.. we felt free and wanted to have fun. This was our "grad night." It was really fun, but I know all of us who got wet are gonna get sick today! Lien got me soaked, and I was kind of frustrated at one point that my nice clothes and shoes were all sandy. In the end, it was a great time.
The beach is so nice at night. So peacefully serene. So isolated. The pier (although closed) gives the water a warm glow with its reflection. I thought I saw a couple people having some sex on the beach! Haha, wouldn't that be something? I think that's why cops patrol at night.
Afterwards, I suggested Carrow's over Norm's and Denny's. A good choice. Carrow's is still very good 24 hours with the same menu. Beatrice slept in the car. She was very tired. I hope she had some fun tonight. We ate until 4:15 a.m. or something. Carrow's definitely have nicer waiters. I'm glad we gave a DECENT/normal amount of tips. I felt bad for the guy. But we're pretty much teens with little money. The only thing I regret is not bringing my camera. This was a day of beautiful disasters. With a graduation, we are finally let go... and it's time to fly. What a rush.
There's a lot more I want to write but I am so sleepy. I can hear the birds chirping.
Thursday, June 12, 2003
I'm done! Dressing and getting ready for graduation that is. I was listening to VC when I was getting ready. Very fitting song.
I think I look very mature cos I actually used a comb this time. I used a tie since Kit said he was gonna don a tie.. I chose from my dad's selection and they're all so... normal and just, normal! I went for the ugliest, multi-color one he got from France which ended up looking okay, I guess. Still, too normal.
Anyways, I just remembered that guy whose car door I kind of touch with my opened door. What a punk! He gave me a dirty glare and all... it's like, my door just touched urs, it didn't hit it or scratch it you dork! Blah!
Also, a freaky telemarketer called and said I sounded insincere... well, hell-o! you're insincere to be calling me when i'm busy and such.. I kept giving her one worded answers when she asked if my parents were home. I just said "no." "no." "no." until she asked me "Are they ever going to be home?" and i said "yes" and they asked "when?" and I replied "soon." Haha! they are such losers!
I think I look very mature cos I actually used a comb this time. I used a tie since Kit said he was gonna don a tie.. I chose from my dad's selection and they're all so... normal and just, normal! I went for the ugliest, multi-color one he got from France which ended up looking okay, I guess. Still, too normal.
Anyways, I just remembered that guy whose car door I kind of touch with my opened door. What a punk! He gave me a dirty glare and all... it's like, my door just touched urs, it didn't hit it or scratch it you dork! Blah!
Also, a freaky telemarketer called and said I sounded insincere... well, hell-o! you're insincere to be calling me when i'm busy and such.. I kept giving her one worded answers when she asked if my parents were home. I just said "no." "no." "no." until she asked me "Are they ever going to be home?" and i said "yes" and they asked "when?" and I replied "soon." Haha! they are such losers!
I'll register this in my blog before I forget. I'm a 'wee' nervous right now about graduation. I just hope I don't chuck up buttered peanut butter fried french toast tonight. I'm going to go take a shower in a moment. I just came back from nasty, nasty, nasty Regent Cafe which has nasty, nasty, nasty stuff. Despite Olivia saying it's good, it's not imo. Even the meat dishes scared people away. Anyways, the waiters were very rude. I thought the $3.50 tip our group of eight people gave was more than enough. $1 was what I was pushing for.
Last night, Clay came to chat and "interview me" up till 2 a.m. ! I'm blogging this because usually, besides sleep overs when I was a little child, friends don't stay that late! It was a new experience for me, but I'm pretty much boring so I don't think he thought it was my conversations were that interesting. I'm such a dork!
Anyways, anyways, anyways... rehearsals today was long. It sucks that my sis can't make it to my graduation but I hope her labor goes well. She's been having morning sickness and craving for fried twinkies! However, she sent me a card that came today.. it was very plain, but I love it. It had a picture of a graduation cap in the front.
I wonder if I'll go to Steven's graduation. It'll be quite awkward in my opinion.
Anyways, anyways, anyways... it's time to take a shower and sing along to Vitamin C! C-ya!
Last night, Clay came to chat and "interview me" up till 2 a.m. ! I'm blogging this because usually, besides sleep overs when I was a little child, friends don't stay that late! It was a new experience for me, but I'm pretty much boring so I don't think he thought it was my conversations were that interesting. I'm such a dork!
Anyways, anyways, anyways... rehearsals today was long. It sucks that my sis can't make it to my graduation but I hope her labor goes well. She's been having morning sickness and craving for fried twinkies! However, she sent me a card that came today.. it was very plain, but I love it. It had a picture of a graduation cap in the front.
I wonder if I'll go to Steven's graduation. It'll be quite awkward in my opinion.
Anyways, anyways, anyways... it's time to take a shower and sing along to Vitamin C! C-ya!
Wednesday, June 11, 2003
I'll actually post something that has meaning today.
Yesterday I was talking to Danh while going to "window-video-renting" at Blockbuster (that meant we didn't rent anything, lol). Anyways, we were having this whole discussion about him liking this one girl... which I guess, is a crush. He was asking me how you actually tell somebody. I'm the last person to come to for this type of talk but I just encouraged him. Because who knows.. what might happen with him and (girl's name, which I know but feel it's not relevant to post).
And now I'm listening to some PLAY songs and being the "romantic" that I am.. (haha as Ms. Burkhart brought up. I supported Catherine with Heathcliff, not Edgar! Go soulmates!) I wanted to make a contributing post. See, I never thought I would like somebody but it was not until later on when I started to get interested. It's just this feeling I get with this person that's just... carefree (that's not the right word to describe it, but I don't really know how TO describe it). My problem is I'm afraid of rejection like everyone else. Would I rather take a leap of faith and see what happens or keep it to myself? Well, I've never taken the first so I can't tell you. Plus, there's this whole thing where I don't know if I should get with someone and not be ready or just plain dislike the good chance that the bad times will be coming around when it's break-up session.
(note: I have no idea where this post is going but I decided I must write something about it this morning.)
I just hope it's not Mandy Moore's "Crush" again where it just goes nowhere. I don't know.. part of me says yes, part of me says no. I just don't want to ruin a good friendship. I never thought I would say that. I never got what people meant when they say they don't want to ruin a friendship. I guess, I know now. Lol.
There is only so much time can do. Part of me has to speak out but I'm afraid. But it's a sign when you wake up thinking about this. Or have strange, nightmares about this with a plush lion eating my hand! I don't think I should even be posting this, but it is better said than forgotten.
Is it "better to be lonely," like Amanda Latona says...? Who knows, but like Lee Ann Womack sings "Loving might be a mistake, but it's worth making." Let's just say I wouldn't put money on either. I would rather watch and see how the situation plays out.
Perhaps this post got me thinking when yesterday Kit decided to tease me about this. I just laughed it off because I didn't know how to react. Ok..... lemme just end this embarassing post!
Yesterday I was talking to Danh while going to "window-video-renting" at Blockbuster (that meant we didn't rent anything, lol). Anyways, we were having this whole discussion about him liking this one girl... which I guess, is a crush. He was asking me how you actually tell somebody. I'm the last person to come to for this type of talk but I just encouraged him. Because who knows.. what might happen with him and (girl's name, which I know but feel it's not relevant to post).
And now I'm listening to some PLAY songs and being the "romantic" that I am.. (haha as Ms. Burkhart brought up. I supported Catherine with Heathcliff, not Edgar! Go soulmates!) I wanted to make a contributing post. See, I never thought I would like somebody but it was not until later on when I started to get interested. It's just this feeling I get with this person that's just... carefree (that's not the right word to describe it, but I don't really know how TO describe it). My problem is I'm afraid of rejection like everyone else. Would I rather take a leap of faith and see what happens or keep it to myself? Well, I've never taken the first so I can't tell you. Plus, there's this whole thing where I don't know if I should get with someone and not be ready or just plain dislike the good chance that the bad times will be coming around when it's break-up session.
(note: I have no idea where this post is going but I decided I must write something about it this morning.)
I just hope it's not Mandy Moore's "Crush" again where it just goes nowhere. I don't know.. part of me says yes, part of me says no. I just don't want to ruin a good friendship. I never thought I would say that. I never got what people meant when they say they don't want to ruin a friendship. I guess, I know now. Lol.
There is only so much time can do. Part of me has to speak out but I'm afraid. But it's a sign when you wake up thinking about this. Or have strange, nightmares about this with a plush lion eating my hand! I don't think I should even be posting this, but it is better said than forgotten.
Is it "better to be lonely," like Amanda Latona says...? Who knows, but like Lee Ann Womack sings "Loving might be a mistake, but it's worth making." Let's just say I wouldn't put money on either. I would rather watch and see how the situation plays out.
Perhaps this post got me thinking when yesterday Kit decided to tease me about this. I just laughed it off because I didn't know how to react. Ok..... lemme just end this embarassing post!
