My column is going to be about an artist that I liked a lot this year. Let's just say, I always liked her album best ever since I purchased it in January.

I feel confident on my work on the SATs today. The verbal was much a bit iffy in the beginning but I caught on. I don't care what I get this time but I'm proud I did the best that I could (unlike last time when I almost fainted). Plus, I'm happy that I don't brag about my scores or share them as a matter of fact.

I'm semi-watching/listening to Jennifer Love Hewitt's "Can I Go Now?" It's really catching onto my ears! I feel like that sometimes that I just want to LEAVE! It's like "Leave me alone, I'm just wasting time fighting with you."

J.Love
"Can I go now?/Said what you had to say/Happy you got your way/There's nothing to discuss/Can I go now?"

Before I go get another dosage of sickening Stats, I just want to write in some column ideas before I forget:

Carly Hennessy (I can picture it right now!)
Monica
jo davidson
Faith Hill
Brittney Cleary
M2M

... and I actually want to write about a guy or a band this time but I can't think of one. I'll look more into it.

A1?
Thicke?
Westlife?
Those Shagg artists?

I'm listening to a one-track playlister (ok, my playlist on the right isn't exactly accurate since I keep adding tracks-of-the-moment on my Winamp) Mandy Moore's "Cry."

Now I have a question. I'm beginning to notice somebody that I have no real classes with (not that it's possible), have nothing in common (unless everyone's a closet t.A.T.u. fan, which I doubt), and doesn't really glance my way (unless I don't catch those glances like my glances). This is unbelievable stupid but after reading "To JayKae: Life Stinx" and the XY column, it is only healthy to tell them how I feel before it turns into some self-inflicted torture which is not good at all.

I'm an incredibly shy person so I believe I should just wait until fate takes its toll so I can make my move. The only thing I'm scared of... is that fate already came along and I passed it down the alley. Was that the right thing to do? It's just me and all my insecurities. I wished I could just wipe them away.

Sarah Whatmore's "When I Lost You" is catchy as Chocolate Sparkle Cookies.

So I got my interview info in the mail today. I'm worried. I'm not a great speaker... and I don't have a TON of extra-curricular activities like a bunch of other people. I don't know what to say. Maybe I should just be confident, do the best I can, and just be me.

Like J.Lo sings "I'm real." At least I try to be. Ok, whatever. I'm just worried.

t.A.T.u.'s album comes out next week.

I set up an interview in two weeks. It makes me cringe since I'm a terrible at interviews. I know it's not good to be nervous and I don't know why I am either... It's not like I'm super super insecure, it's just that I'm afraid of the "dead slience." If I don't make it into the school, I'll know it was because of THE INTERVIEW. However, the interview is worth the risk. I've talked over with a High School alumni who told me the interview does weigh in... and to overcome my fear and stomach butterflies, I'm heading in!

I am going to do all that I can because I really do care. I am committed and I want to show it. RAWWW!

I don't know why I let someone read my essay. :-\ That was a stupid decision.

How stupid could I have been? I went to sleep last night with lots of doubt (even after watching a great movie "Clue" - one of my all-time favorites!)... my college essay isn't something I'm proud off. Just like the time at the write-offs at SC-JEA... I ended up turning in an essay I knew was bad after the get-go. I still completed it hoping it was good yet I knew it wasn't... That's how I feel with my college essay. But the difference is... I still have days to turn it in.

Today, I looked back and I remembered something Kit told me. I am a "protester." And that brings back the time I actively campaigned to get "O&A" back on the air... and the time I wrote a petition to Universal Music snail mail and email... and when I stood up for CoCo Lee to radio stations.

I've just about finished a "rough" essay about the topic... and I'm very proud of it. I don't care about the UCs so I'll just submit whatever but tomorrow I'll try and have my teacher read it over. I like it a lot. It sounds more honest and less forced than the one about Jo (I still love your music!).

I'm less worried now about not making it in my school of choice because of my essay, because this is something I'm proud of. It represents me. And if they don't like it, then there's nothing more I can do about it. I turned in what I feel represents me. K to the E to the N to the N -Y!

Don't be fooled by the rocks that I've got, I'm still (I'm still) Kenny from da block! ;)