"Strange Days"
[Music || Avril Lavigne, "My Happy Ending"]
These last couple of days have been a blur. I found myself feeling low for no apparent reason. I just didn't feel happy, even if I had a smile plastered on. I've noticed that when I'm around friends, I'm more uplifting. I don't think I'm being "fake," but rather, I am happy because when I'm around them, I'm able to distract myself from thinking so much.

I just came back tonight from going to the SM Pier and hanging out with some old friends. I felt out of place, yet happy to be distracted from depressing thoughts.

I didn't know how to feel tonight. Something was seriously wrong with me in the Sylvia Plath "Bell Jar" way. Maybe I'm the only one judging my performance tonight.

My emotions are unstable... I think I'm going crazy. I really do.