Wouldn't it be the best if I came back during the hs reunion and kicked down the double-doors? Romy and Michele, here I come!

I hate thin letters. Burn them. Burn me.

Have you noticed that if one trade emotions with another, it is like poison from a scorpion? It won't sting till you wait a bit later and realize what you've just said.

Let me say it here and let me say it now.

I should be happy. Why shouldn't I? A school I really want to go to has accepted me and I can't ask for more. Why do I keep needing the acceptance of others to feel complete? Have I learned nothing these past four years? Have I just been the numb little boy who marked ivory walls with pencil when his parents told him he was going to move? Am I just the child who was afraid people who came to see if they wanted to rent our house would steal my beanie babies? Have I not learned anything from Young and Jessica, Jue and Steven, Bernard and Robert, Helen and Albert, and the people I know now?

Have I betrayed Amelie?

Let me ask myself this. If I can't look at myself and follow what Mr. Green told us each morning in 7th Grade, who am I? It is now up to me to leech the poison out and not be the weakling. It is time now for fun and learning. This chapter will end in June when I will graduate. I am determine to go out with a happy ending. Let the cliffhangers fall and let the next chapter roar. Come what may.

I'm listening to one of the first songs I've ever downloaded on this computer. It was when I got it for my birthday and I was talking smack about how much Ms. Chen scarred me for life. Anyways, it's Geri Halliwell's "Walkaway." I really like it right now. It's weird how I never bought her album. I wouldn't buy it now, but the songs I've heard and the singles I've bought are good.

"Walkaway" is a sad song. Especially in this point of my teenage years.

I want a natural high again. Ultimate, natural high.

I can't wait to go to "Euro Pane" next week and see if they are snobby nobby. They sound so good.

Okay, I think something is wrong with my body because now that I'm eating "normal," I feel like vomiting after. It might also be that I eat too fast. This is bad though. The sucky thing is that now I look bloated.

I hate "friend-stealers."

And I want to see Salma win tonight.