[On air || Stephen Gately, "I Believe"]
I feel like a virgin of being able to feel my pearly tea-stained yellows again. Ahh.. at last. A wise person once asked me, "Are your teeth going to see the day of light?" I must say, they did today.

A triumph!

[Listening to Lucy Woodward, "Always Something"]
And I kept on rocking with CDs I never planned to buy but the hype blinded me to it.

Yes, me. Moi, bought Lucy Woodward's debut album "While You Can." If you predicted I would do this a few months ago, I would've slapped you silly. Today while walking around an Empire Records-like store named Amoeba, I spotted Woodward's album and since "Standing" made such an impact on me (and Jo Davidson promoted Woodward on her site), I purchased the album.

Granted, it was only $1.00. That was a strong factor in my decision. I was about to pick up Shannon McNally's too but I thought $1.00 was too much for her horny music. I felt like a kid in a candy store, but alas.. I had to control myself. That mean.. NO Tonya Mitchell, no Brooke Allison, no Aja Daashuur! Now I think about it, if I had come across A*Teens "Teen Spirit" or PYT's "Down With Me," I would've bought them in a heartbeat.

I felt like a kid in a candy store. CD+low price+variety of my "flop artists" = a new level of orgasmic pleasure

I have got to save money though. I have to make my Delta Goodrem "Innocent Eyes" special edition fund!

And oh yeah, I suppose the movie premiere was fun but the movie wasn't. I had too high of an expectations. Damn RottenTomatoes. But anyways, "Dirty Pretty Things" isn't my type of movie in general. Tautou was great as always, but I would not rent this on DVD even if it was free.

[Listening to Lucy Woodward, "Blindsided"]
Okay, now I have to take a shower and get overprepared for my first ever movie premiere! Granted, there will not be any red carpet and cemented handprints... but I am still going to make this into a big deal. After all, it's not everyday one meets the director of "High Fidelity" (a movie I have yet to rent. hehe).

Haha.. overdressing for a small dingy (okay, maybe NOT so small) theater.. now that's the way I like it!

Oh yeah, I lost my Johnny Rockets virginity today. It was not bad. Not bad at all. The only thing that was a downer was the fact that none of the jukeboxes were co-operating with me.

So there. I posted another arrogant post all about moi. Oui, oui!

[Listening to Delta Goodrem, "This Is Not Me"]
That's it. I'm throwin' the towel in. I'm buying Delta's album. SPECIAL EDITION. Allriiiiiite?

[Listening to Hilary Duff, "So Yesterday"]
One question I'm always hampered with when people find that I choose not to eat a large variety of meats is, "You don't get enough protein." Well, you know what.. believe what you want, but don't think I'm stupid. Instead of arguing with what I've learned, I think I'd rather just give this link to one of my favorite sites online VegParadise.com.

Also, I don't want to label myself and I don't know why some people decide to force a label upon myself. I just like to say, I eat what I want because it's my body. I mean, really.. it's ME. Why should I have to consult with everyone about what I eat and when I eat it? It's me, me, me.. that's the way it's suppose to be. I don't have anybody to disappoint. Go to a flying f-hole if you are like my terrible dentist. And rot there.

[Listening to Meat Loaf, "Why Isn't That Enough"]
Oh my word... I finally heard Meat Loaf's full version of "Why Isn't That Enough." It's such a beautiful song.. I still remember when Jo Davidson burst into it with such honesty and emotion at The Knitting Factory. This brings back memories. My only regret is not being able to hear Jo's version over and over again. However, some things are better left in the moment.

I can't wait for Jo's next album "The Simply Said Sessions." She confirmed her version of "Why Isn't That Enough" will be on it.

Personally, there isn't a specific answer to whom or what this song means to me. Instead, I imagine the song's questioning is on a universal level of not being able to obtain something despite giving all your effort. I imagine everybody felt this at one point or another.

Song: Why Isn't That Enough
Artist: Meat Loaf
Album: Couldn't Have Said it Better
Lyrics: Courtesy of this website

I don’t know how I can do this
What am I supposed to say?
You have been my dream for so long
Now that dream is slipping away
I don’t want to let you go
It´s only that I know I must
I can´t hardly get the words out
Baby is this the end of us?

You know that I want you
You know that I need you baby
You know that I love you
So why isn’t that enough?

I´ve been sleeping in the daytime
I´ve been weeping at the scene
Wishing you would haunt me
And you would tell me this was all a dream

Wishing you were here beside me
What I would give to hold you tight
But nothing I can do or say
Will change the truth tonight

You know that I want you
You know that I need you baby
You know that I love you
So why isn’t that enough?

If I want you
And I need you
And I love you
And I want that to be enough

Because I want you
And I need you
And I love you
And I want that to be enough

Yes I want you
And I need you
And I love you
And I want that to be enough

(2x)

I don’t want to let you go
It´s only that I know I must
I can hardly get the words out
Baby is this the end of us?

You know that I want you
You know that I need you baby
You know that I love you
So why isn’t that enough?
Why isn’t that enough?
I wish it was enough

[Listening to Delta Goodrem, "This Is Not Me"]
"Do I stand alone?" -Delta Goodrem, "This Is Not Me"

The volunteering thing today was a letdown compared to yesterday. I had basically nothing to do. Upon leaving early, something didn't feel right. My pants were too light. I patted my pockets. No clink. That meant... no keys. I left them in the car! Shame on me! I guess I never believed I would until it really happens. I never lock my door from the outside with the key... That's something I should start doing.

Olivia had to drive me home to get another key and drive me back. Turns out I left them in the engine key slot thing.. I think I know why. When I was leaving the car, I checked my cell phone and indeed, someone called. This distracted me as I was pulling out the sun shades thing. So, the keys ended up there.

Also, my fucking loser dentist who I would never recommend to anyone in a million years is a fucking screw up liar. He told me all I had to do was wear my rubber bands for two weeks and he'll take them out. Well, guess what? Like I didn't see it coming... but somehow I hoped he would prove me wrong. He lied. He's a fucking screw-up that isn't sincere to anyone. I hope k-k-k-arma gets back to him. And is it wrong to wish I'll be there to see it?

Argh.. I mean, there's nothing else you CAN do. My teeth align now and he wants me to wear this SQUARE thing. He said to return next week but said "This coming Friday." So, I'm not gonna wait a week and took his word on it and I'm going back on Friday. I hope someone busts his fucking ass and shuts down his business. I can imagine standing there when that day comes.. my eyes gleaming with joy, my mouth smirking to its widest extent.

[Listening to Delta Goodrem, "Born To Try"]
This was what I was asking for. New experiences.

Today I got to actually be of help at volunteering. What a relief! I suppose they put me to work cos all I did was sat there. Some of the highlights of today was pouring urine, assisting in undressing two old men, and helping with finding a patient's temperature from their rectum. I think my innocent eyes (and senses) experienced too much today.

Also, I guess you learn new things everyday. Workers have to turn files and paper to the inside because patient papers are confidential and it's illegal to put it out. The nurse asked me to clip it to the board and I clipped it normally... which was wrong so I was semi-scolded to turn it to the inside. I guess it makes sense.

Well, that's about it. Also, I bought a lot of food at the market yesterday to cook. However, when I got home, I decided to just nuke something which is pretty ironic since I bought FRESH produce which I would let rot while TV dinners won't (for a long while).

Let's see if I really bought what I sought after. This is a research on my fickle music taste as a teenager.

[ Mon Nov 18, 06:31:13 PM | Kenneth H | edit ]
I'm gonna be dorky and make a CD wish list (hint: Christmas). I just have so much I want. I'll make a nice fancy gallery of the CDs when I have time... but not today. CD wish lists are usually stuff I can bear without but still really want. For example, I won't wait for a t.A.T.u. album but would wait for a Rascal Flatts album since I like their song but I'm not crazy about it.

Albums (listing from stuff I want the most):
1. Gareth Gates, "What My Heart Wants To Say" YES. I love the sappy love ballads for hopeless romantics. Hey, a boy can dream as PYT sorta said.

2. Vanessa Amorosi, "Change" (Germany import) NO. VA was dropped but I still believe this album is good especially after the brilliant (but flopped) "True To Yourself." Word has it she is recording a brand new album for her Australian release.

3. Robyn, "Don't Stop The Music" (Sweden import); Carly Hennessy, "Ultimate High" NO/YES. I bought Carly Hennessy's. I wrote a column on this interesting girl. Her album ain't bad and I learned how to play "No One's Safe From Goodbye." I no longer have intentions to buy Robyn's.

4. Lene Marlin, "Playing My Game" (import); RubyBlue, "Beyond Pink" NO/YES. Lene's shot to the top of my want list. It's strange how I keep buying albums I don't really love and I put on hold my favorite album of all time.. LENE! I will buy it now with my Tower gift card or something. I did buy RubyBlue's and it's one of my favorite purchases of the year. I don't know how smart pop can go beyond RubyBlue.. and why they never officially got the chance to release it. Shame on their record company.

5. Rascal Flatts, "Melt"; A Walk To Remember, soundtrack YES/NO. I got Rascal's because KMart was having a big discount on their store closing. It's a great country album with some of the fantastic tunes. One day, I will buy the AWTR soundtrack.

6. Shania Twain, "UP!" YES. I did buy it the first day because it was cheap and I was in KMart. It was two discs too and came with a free poster. It's an album I can live without.

7. Point of Grace, "Free To Fly" NO. I still have interest in it... but it's not a CD I am crazy to purchase.

8. Mandy Moore, "Mandy Moore" NO. I still want it though, but until prices drop and I have money to spare.

9. Tina Arena, "Just Me" (import); Alizee, "Gourmandises" (French import) NO/NO. I still have a bit of interest in both.. but I can live without them. Perhaps I will get a chance to buy them when I visit France... whenever that is.

10. Sissel, "Sissel" (US debut) YES. I like this album very much. Her voice is stunning. I love her rendition of "Solitarie." Tower had a great deal on this so I snatch it up.

11. Christina Aguilera, "Stripped" NO, no intentions to buy it now either. I just wanted it at the time because of the hype.

12. Tim McGraw, "Tim McGraw and the Dancehall Doctors" NO. Read #11.

13. Will Young, "From Now On" NO. But maybe I still want it when I can find it for cheap. This is the equivalant to Kelly Clarkson's "Thankful." It's probably gonna be very generic.

14. LeAnn Rimes, "Twisted Angel" YES! Thanks to the KMart store closing sale. This album includes one of my favorite driving with the windows rolled down songs, "Suddenly"! It gives me a sense of independence when I listen to it. The album is slick and nice and not as bad as some have criticized it to be. I like it.

15. Amelie, soundtrack NO. Same thing with Alizee's. I have yet to become a fan of movie scores too.

16. The Corrs, Vh1 live (with Bono) NO. I still like The Corrs so maybe I will buy it, but only when it's the right timing and I like the price.

17. Jennifer Lopez, "This Was Me... Then" NO. No interest. It was the hype.
18. Mariah Carey, "Charmbracelet" NO. Same as #17.
19. Craig David, "Slicker Than Your Average" NO. Same as #17.
20. 3lw, "A Girl Can Mack" NO. Same as #17.

(Ok, ok... so I don't want a lot of them but I just wanted the list to end on a nice even number. I'll probably buy 3, 4 or the ones I listed. t.A.T.u. rocks!)

Singles (ok, singles? now that's pathetic!)
1. Delta Goodrem, "Born To Try" (Australian import) NO. Maybe the album though...
2. Faith Hill, "Cry" (import with "Wicked" and "Shadows") NO. I don't like singles that much now.
3. Vanessa Amorosi, "Spin (Everybody's Doin' It) NO. I don't like singles tha tmuch now.

How many did I buy out of 24 albums? Seven.

[Listening to Amy Studt, "Nobody"]
Today I slept very late. Then I went clothes shopping but came home empty handed again. Then I got all pissy on everybody cos I didn't want to talk to anybody.

Okay, instead of signing offline, I decided to look at some old Cyndi sites to check up what's up with her (nothing much, she's still out of the spotlight - which is what she wanted, so she rocks for sticking by her word). Anyways, the fan forum has this thing called Friday Five from FridayFive.org. I guess I'll do this now. It's interesting and will help me learn more about myself. So here goes...


1. Do you remember your first best friend? Who was it?
Yes, I do. I wouldn't say I had any best friends in Kindergarden. My "first best friend" would probably be Gabriel since we hung out all through elementary school. Young and Jessica were my other best friends I shortly met afterwards.

2. Are you still in touch with this person?
Unfortunately, no. It would be very awkward if I met Gabriel again... I'm sure we both have changed so much. Everybody loses the kid in them. I haven't seen him since I moved back to Alhambra, which would be in 7th grade. However by then, we weren't great friends, but still friends nonetheless. I have been in touch with Young and Jessica but very sparingly.. I would love to be in touch more. I know we'll still be friends if when we meet again... it's inevitable, we lived across from each other and played Boxcar Children and had the time of our lives.

3. Do you have a current close friend?
Yes, I never believed I would when I moved here. I'm thankful for everything.

4. How did you become friends with this person?
Honestly, I really don't remember. Wait, charmbracelet.

5. Is there a friend from your past that you wish you were still in contact with? Why?
Definitely. I wished I was still close knitted with Jessica and Young. Partly, I'm at fault for not making the calls. This post is something for me to think about. Who knows... maybe I should. I mean, I can't have Young fly in to America, but it'll be nice to call her up. And I want to hang out with Jessica... I haven't seen her since December 2001. Also, I would like to see Jue and Steven before I leave. And "Why?"... simply because I miss them and I'm sure even though we've all changed and grown, whatever kept us knitted together in the beginning is still there. I'm optimistic.

[Listening to Hera, "Itchy Palms"]
Today I helped a friend of mine type out his resume (I don't know how to put the French accent). Hopefully, my proof reading and suggestions are... well, good. I hope he gets the job. Best wishes and a double shot of huggles! >_o

Today at Ralphs, some man was trying to get money from me. He said "My wife and I want to get something to eat. Do you have any money to spare?" I was so scareeeeeeeeeeeeeeed. Like, wow! I was too stunned to say anything. It was like deja vu.

That's all. A lazy, hazy summer day.