[Listening to Skye Sweetnam, "Billy S," Michelle Branch, "I'd Rather Be In Love," & Liz Phair, "Why Can't I"]
Since I was too tired to post my day yesterday, I'll do it now.

The day started with registering. I ended up switching my whole schedule... which is quite bad at this time because all my classes are full. I was so naive when I registered at orientation. I fixed it up good, but the thing is... I accidently dropped Critical Thinking thinking I could get one at another time, only to find out the other one requires some other requirement group I don't fix in. Shucks.

Anyways, I ended up with a schedule that includes "Introduction to Astronomy." Although I don't like telling people because they like warning me and putting me down for taking risks, I like to tell them that it's my life and I want to experience new things. Who's to say I won't like something if I don't try it.

Rushing from my noon-ish registering, I raced to Marie Callender's to dine at the patio with my aviator glasses buddy. The onion rings (courtesy of the MC at the mall... you don't have to pay extra like the other MCs) weren't as good. Maybe it's because I was starving and I gobbled everything down that I felt like throwing it up afterwards. Hmm.. These are times I will truly miss and I will forever cherish. I can only selfishly hope that there will be more of these precious moments before I must fly off to the great unknown of "call-ledge." We even found some "Kit's Surprise" buttons from the American Girls novels.. and found time to see what clothes we can't buy from GAP.

Later in the afternoon, I met up with my two amigos to go see "Legally Blonde 2: Red, White, and Blonde starring Reese Whitterspoon."

Little did I know this included eating dinner with them. Huh.. they wanted to eat PHO, which I rarely touch unless it's at VeggieLife and even then, I'm not crazy about it. Lucky me, that I ate at MC before hand.. just like 2 hours before. Still, they didn't believe me. Argh, this led to some heated arguments. Anyways, we ended up at this Thai restaurant where I tried the "Sweet rice and mango... MUST TRY!!!!!!!!!!!!" (as the menu stated). It was nice. I was more full and I felt sick that I was eating so much in such a short period of time.

Back to "Legally Blonde 2: Red, White, and Blonde starring Reese Whitterspoon," it's not a big deal but I want to make it a big deal because this super rude bitch who needs to get an attitude adjustment named Michelle Y_ at the Edwards Renaissance on Main Street said to me "You don't need to say at that." Excuse me, I can say whatever I want. I can call it "Legally Blonde 2: Red, White, and Blonde starring Reese Whitterspoon, Sally Field, Luke Wilson, and Regina King" if I wanted to. Go shove a broom up yours, Michelle. And your rude attitudey face too! You know what, don't work there if you don't like movies. Go work at Golden Carp in Chinatown.

The movie taught me to speak up and I did. On my blog.

What surprised me the most was that I actually bought something expensive. I bought a shirt from Urban Outfitters. I've been there like 2 years ago but found that I couldn't fathom spending $24 on a neat t-shirt. They still have them... same design, but I didn't buy them. I bought a nice yellow one on the sale rack for $14.99 plus tax. I don't get what it means but I like the design and color. I was hesistant at first, but once I felt the soft fabric touch lightly against my skin in the "urban fitting room," I knew it was for me. Roarrrrrrrrrrrr! So I charged it cos I was broke.

There are times that I feel some friends say some really mean things to me. I don't know if I'm easily offended or I'm uncomfortable.. but I know that's not what friends are for. I certainly know that I don't do so.. and even though I recipocate the resentment and meaniness sometimes, I just want to see how THEY FEEL. It only means they accuse me of being the nasty person I am even more. Okay, I don't know where I'm going with this.. but I feel so uncomfortable sometimes.

Call this a case of "Excess Baggage" and label me as the poor, confused little boy who has been emotionally wounded. Just joking. :P

"We can, do the impossible!" - LeAnn Rimes, "We Can"

[Listening to Hilary Duff, "So Yesterday"]
Okay, I guess I won't blog another post as if I'm on crack.

I'm gonna go play more SWG and hope my albino plus-size dancer will get a ton of tips! I hope Jue will give me some slutty outfits to wear.

"When you wake up, it will seem so yesterday, so yesterday, haven't you heard that I'm gonna be okay?" - Hilary Duff, "So Yesterday" (it's not a GREAT song and "Why Not" is better by miles, but "So Yesterday" is growing on me. KIIS has already added it... I wonder why though)

[Listening to Delta Goodrem, "Innocent Eyes"]
Lately I've wondering if it's wrong to want to be understood.

Yesterday I went to the park again. This time it was late in the afternoon and I didn't have lunch yet. I packed a slice of apple pie and a bottle of water. I decided to pick up the rest of my lunch at Ralphs. When I got there, they didn't offer my choice of beverage (Naked juice) so I contemplated over some normal OJ or lemonade. I went with lemonade and a pack of Hummus-like lunchables.

I went to the park which I thought would look nice with the lake. It was nice but still, the lake was dirty (as expected) with lots of bugs. Still, I can't complain. There were a lot of bugs. However, the shade and breeze were really nice. I don't know how to describe it. I felt free at last. I sat through a chapter of "Monica's Story" while fighting off bugs and flies invading my clothing and novel. It was distracting, but I felt at peace. I didn't have to put up with anyone and I didn't have anyone to dictate me or scrutize me. I didn't have to put on a front. I could just be away from everything. Solace and serenity.

As I walked along the dirt path on that warm summer afternoon, I took a look around at the people exercising, canoodling, and reading I felt at ease. I rolled down my windows and listened to the self-discovery punk-pop of my beloved "Josie and The Pussycats" soundtrack, driving 50 mph in the 50 mph zone.

That's all. And congratulations to Adrianne Curry on being America's Next Top Model! She deserved it!

[Listening to Lucy Woodward, "Standing"]
"How come the things I can't touch are the things that hurt so much, well I'll never know..."

I made the "Standing" banner for fun a couple days ago. It was just so crappy and didn't really mean anything, but I just thought I'll use it when I felt I connected with the song. I sort of do now. Today an old Angela Ammons pal chatted to me about "Standing" because it was in my profile. Guess whose profile that line appears in now too?

The line(s) is lovely.

I'm standing, I'm standing where I belong.

[Listening to Delta Goodrem, "Throw It Away"]
Today I drove. For a little bit. Anyways, progress is progress. Olivia still isn't home yet. I guess I have to go to Garfield without her tomorrow. Hope she's having a fun vacation (not so sunny though since SF isn't sunny at all). Anyways, I drove to return my videos but I went past the traffic light which scarred me.

I walked down to check it out.. there were two people there playing a guitar. I had to look like I was doing something. So I walked down looking at the traffic light while crossing the street. So, not to look stupid or anything, I checked out the time schedule of the museum and I walked back.. this time standing under the traffic light which "flashed." I didn't see anything wrong with it. I couldn't see any big chunky boxes. These cameras must be more high tech than I thought. Or it was all my own mind's playing tricks on myself.

Anyways, today at dinner, I was full. But some people have hidden agendas or misconceptions or whatever the fuck is wrong with them.. that for a FEW seconds, I was literally near tears when they sort of coerced me to eat another slice. It probably was a light hearted joke but I guess I didn't see it that way when words pluck certain chords, you know? I said no. I am old enough to decide for myself. Then there's this talk about how I have an eating disorder and that I'm deliberately "not eating another slice" because I forced myself not to. I was so fucking pissed that I was near tears. I was full and it was not their body. I eat when I'm hungry and I stop when I'm fucking full. It's not a big deal.. and at the time, it wasn't a big deal because I didn't want to make a scene (and good thing I didn't, cos I don't want to be selfish and make a big comotion over something small). Anyways, I just don't like it when there's nothing wrong with me. I just don't want someone to force me to do something I don't want. And I surely don't want to vomit.

It's just that many people have said that to me at one point or another... and I just didn't expect it from a friend.