Okay, I'm going to blog this before it's not fresh in my memory.

"Lilya 4-Ever" is one fucked up movie that is fucking good. That's the only way I can describe it. I knew what I was getting into when I went to go see it, but it's kind of like... inflicting pain on yourself. Even though you know it's bad for you, you can't stop from seeing it. It's S&M for goodness sakes. No one in the right mind would want to go see something like "Lilya."

But it's haunting. And it's unforgettable. And there were many times I smiled with Lilya. Felt her pain. And this may be the closest film to move me toward tears. I couldn't stop watching it (even though a couple people couldn't stand it and walked out) and I covered my eyes, but I still peered through the cracks of my fingers. I am still haunted by Lilya and all the shit it says about life.

There is a moral in there about life and death.. about living and choosing to die. And about how sometimes, it's hard to find the will to live. The movie is so good. It's not for everybody.

The actress who plays Lilya reminds me of the actress in "Xiu Xiu: The Sent Down Girl." It's heartbreaking to watch innocence lost. You can't watch that nor can you pay for it. But "Lilya 4-Ever" is a haunting film that will live you dazed. I can't describe it anymore. I'm happy that I paid to go see this bizarre, weird, crazy, sad, whatever whatever movie.

The audience wasn't very big (far from it!) because I doubt many people would like to put themselves through a movie like "Lilya." It's up to you to see this art about... ____. Lilya will steal your heart and have you near tears.

FOUR STARS

I think I may need glasses after saying hooked to the cpu this long. I'm lazy. I can be. I'm a senior! Whoo-hoo!

I'm listening to "Only Hope" right now. It's official.. now that I finally listened to the song without the accompanied film of Mandy singing, this song is flying fantastic. I love it.

Go Mandy and I can't wait for "Coverage."

I'm on a PYT faze right now. I think geoguy was right, I should've bought their album. I will soon. I was just upset their better songs, which were more pop, were cut from the album. PYT were a good group. Shame on stations for being so "Same Ol' Same Ol'" and not spinning them!

Also, I updated my short Amanda site. Go "Do You Still"!

Olivia lent me her "official Hero" VCD today. I finally watched it. It's flippin' GOOD! Screw MiramAXe and their delay. They just suck... I can't believe they deprived such a good movie from the US for so long. Not only that, the movie is being edited (even more?).

Damn, I recommend everyone to go watch it!

I'm listening to Willa's album for some reason. I tried to look at the "alternate video" in the hyperCD but it doesn't work. Hmm.. It's not a great album, but it's one I cannot live without since I use to listen to her songs on the computer over and over and over again.

I'm listening to M2M's "Everything" right now. One day, when I walk into a CD shop.. I will purchase Lene and M2M and stuff I've always wanted.

I remember one time, not so long ago, I could play "Don't." Now I struggle with chords such as Amanda Latona's "Do You Still." I don't think I can bring my guitar with me to the dorms. At least I learned something new (whatever that is) and I can now live with the fact that I tried. And I can play somewhat.

Yes, sometimes the young do get old. Not for long though since PYT's "Same Ol' Same Ol'" is starting up on my playlist now. Go Sarai!

Btw, my desktop wallpaper is "The Lizzie McGuire Movie".. I just haven't updated the photo on this page yet.

I was driving on the freeway yesterday (with my dad, I CAN'T do that alone!) and it was kind of freaky (yeah, bad word choice). Okay, it's wayyy too fast for me. Anyways, I had to find out where the theater was.

Amanda Latona's "Do You Still" is finally impacting radio stations May 12! REQUEST IT!