I like the lyrics to Tammy Cochran's "Life Happened." Hits you right in the heart.

What am I going to do with myself? I'm a mess!!!

I finished "The Lovely Bones" this morning rather than finishing HW. It was a good book. I'm actually kinda glad it didn't turn into some kind of thriller which focused on revenge and capturing the murderer. It was a book about grief and how her death affected her family and friends.. and how each person copes and goes on.

A lovely book and it really makes you think...

Ok, I stated that I was gonna lose all the weight during the holidays.. but it's been so hard! It's like chocolate galore and tons of yummy (and fatty) foods. Mmm.. I have to control myself!

Also, last night I was reading "The Lovely Bones" (wow, what a book!) till 3 am (ok, it's not fair to say that since I was playing some old skool Harvest Moon 64 till 2 am). The book is so subtle in some ways and has so many storylines with each character. One single sentence which sent chills to a character in the book did the same to me. It was that freaky! I was looking back my pillow to make sure no one was in the room.. it's pretty frightening.

Talk about SAT scores. I felt confident last time but my verbal scores are just low. I don't know why. Maybe they eliminated one of stronger tests I did in the latter portion. The front part of the verbal when I was still adjusting to the time were terrible. I don't know what happened. The school I applied to is taking the best single score from any sitting... which is a good thing since my math score did shoot up!

Also... "Personal Velocity" is back! Whew! I have to go see it for sure this time. By MYSELF!

I don't like the whole image thing.

Who is to say I CAN'T?

Time to change my music playlist.

I found this poem of acceptance by annoynmous. It is a great poem.

Sometimes I feel that people don't accept one another for whatever reason. Acceptance is not making people feel uncomfortable or weird. Acceptance is not forcing people into your mold. Acceptance is being able to embrace each other's differences. I may not always be this person, but I hope to learn and grow to be.

Maybe I may never be the secure person I want to be, but I am trying day by day to accept and appreciate the person I am.

For I am unique and one of a kind. I'm not anybody's boy and I will not conform!
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Poem On Acceptance, by Anonymous
(The only person on earth you need to be accepted by is yourself.)
When you get what you want in the struggle for the self,
And the world makes you king and queen for the day,
Just go to a mirror and look at yourself,
And see what that person has to say!
For it isn't your father, mother, friend or host,
Whose judgement upon you must pass;
The person whose verdict counts the most,
Is the one staring from the glass.
Some may think you are a wonderful chum,
And call you as radiant as the sun;
But if the person in the mirror says you're dumb,
And you can't look him in the eye - you're done.
He is the one to please, never mind the rest,
For he will be with you until the end,
And you will have passed your most difficult test
If the person in the mirror becomes your friend.
You may fool the whole world along the years,
And get pats on your back as the ages you pass,
But your final reward will be jahannam and tears,
If you've cheated the person in the glass."