"Dependent On Distractions"
[Music B*Witched, "Like The Rose"]
I feel I'm slipping down to where I was once summer started. Staying around with no job or no school is no fun. It's downright depressing.

Right now, without the distraction of school problems or cramming for exams, I suddenly have more time to think over my problems instead of running away from them. It's kind of depressing. I can't go out as much either because I don't have lots of pocket money (because I don't work).

I don't know.. Yesterday I went to Barnes Park Library or whatever. I thought it would be a refuge from home; instead, it was a smelly, seedy library with noisy kids and cell phones. I couldn't read two pages without being distracted (the bad type of distraction, that is). I long for the days of my campus library... cool, quiet, and dead.

I think I'm so down, I can't even read a depressing book. It's too hard.

Yesterday, I rewatched "Kissing Jessica Stein" with a new perspective, a new angle. That Rilke quote really gets to me again. Each time I read it, I find something more. It speaks to me, because I think there's a lot of similarities between all the complex, 3-dimensional characters in the movie and me. Actually, those characters are in all of us.

"It is not inertia alone that is responsible for human relationships repeating themselves from case to case, indescribably monotonous and unrenewed. It is shyness before any sort of new and unforseeable experience with which one does not think oneself able to cope, but only someone who is ready for everything, who excludes nothing, not even the most enigmatical, will live the relation to another as something alive." -Rilke

"PCC With Mixed Results"
[Music S Club, "Don't Stop Movin'"]
Here I am, done with PCC summer school! My, it seemed like yesterday that I enrolled. What's my input on the session? Here's the good, the bad, and the sexy:

The good:
-It was short. The classes were relatively short and I only had to attend 3 days of classes a week. Overall, I only spent roughly a month in summer school.
-It covers boring GE credits. Hopefully.
-Tests were open book, open notes, and generally, graded very leniently.
-My test taking skills increased.
-I got a sense of commuting to school. It was awesome driving each morning with a new CD blasting.

The bad:
-I didn't feel like I learned as much as I should and could've. Psychology is very interesting, but condensed to a one month schedule, there was hardly anything that stuck on me.
-Some of the lectures were so boring, I wanted to fall asleep. They seriously were BORING. So so boring.
-I couldn't resell the books. It's a terrible system. They were only offering about 1/4 of how much I paid for my Psych book because it's not used next semester. Similarly, my Communications book was rejected because they're using a new edition next year. My professor claimed we were able to resell them if we bought them. Guess not.

The sexy:
-I got to be infatuated with smoker, slacker, sporty, unique, Crossword puzzle junkie, can't hold a lot of piss in his bladder, SD dresser (complete with the sandals), "Survivor Rob Mariano."

Okay, it's probably not "sexy" but rather "ugly and depressing."

"First Daughter Update"
[Music Brandy feat/ Kayne West, "Talk About Our Love"]
Finally, some "First Daughter" news. The movie does not have 20th Century Fox's support as the release date has been tossed around like a rag doll. Apparently, the movie is now pushed back up from November to fill in a slot for Fox on September 24, pitting it against another romantic comedy, Kirsten Dunst's "Wimbledon."

Still, alas, I am happy to see "First Daughter" get a release. The trailer is not all that exciting, but I am still giving the movie my support. There's something about Katie bringing elegance and fun to this movie. It won't do anything at box office, but I hope I'm proven wrong.

There's many places to watch the trailer online, but here's a link for the lazy. I heard the trailer was placed in front of "A Cinderella Story" this weekend.